each year I go back to this day and remember each word they said to me and more and question and get upset as to they could of saved me from what was about to happen on oct 20th and oct 22 ( cabg ) but chose to say i was not textbooked........ I pray that ONE DAY they will see there is no textbook for heart disease only survivors !!!!!!!!!
Today as I write this I think to myslef , would I change anything that happened to me, and the answer is NO ( I wish it never happened BUT ) everything happens for a reason , I have always believed that and I used to question what that reason was, BUT not any more. each day that I breath , each day that i love my loved ones, each day I hug my grands and see their love . THATS THE REASON.......... so each day is a reason for what happened to me........... to my family....... BC this heart disease not only has ahold of me BUT them as well. and it has brought us HERE to Georgia, to where my kids grew up fell in love and gave me precious grands that I never thought I would see, Watching my kids become adults and so honored to see them do so.......
being with the love of my life Rusty and growing old with him and watching his eyes light up with each grandkid as well, this is the reason., this was our quest , this was our road to be taken EVEN though it was hard 15 years ago and was touch and go and still today we fight this battle of heart disease.....BUT we do it together as a WHOLE LOVING FAMILY
So this OCT i still have a hard time with the next couple of days. BUT , I am here and I am loving and holding and MORE with my family. and so honored to be their wife, mother and nane. to each of them , and for that I thank GOD for allowing me to be here !!!!!!!
take each day and run with it, make memories and dont look back.... for you was there BUT now you are HERE and move forward in what is to be and will become
one footstep one heartbeat
together we are Heart2Heart